a.k.a. Alone at last
Well, here we go again. My partner just left for little over three months, about five weeks behind schedule. Even with so much time to prepare myself, I still hated having to say goodbye… but found a way to deal with it by focusing my energy on a task at hand, hoping to make it feel like a fresh start – at least for a while.
I spent the better part of the afternoon rearranging the furniture in our living room, something I had meant to do for a little while. I had to empty a bookcase to move it across the room, did the same with my dresser, and moved my desk to a corner where I wasn’t sure it would fit. I now see the room from a new angle and it feels really weird.
In the process, I found some books I had forgotten about, sorted through a lot of papers and things I thought I had put away but – surprise! – hadn’t, and made some efforts to decorate the place a little. Now I want to buy curtains to hide the corner of the room where he normally plays and codes – I just can’t stand the sight of it right now.
Maybe tomorrow I will embrace this new start and focus entirely on my job. Or maybe I will get up at 3 pm and spend the afternoon – if not the whole weekend – watching TV. As of now, I have no way of telling which one it will be. But I still have a lot of work to do to decorate the flat and won’t have too much of three months to do so!