Loneliness, your silent whisper
Fills a river of tears through the night
– X Japan, Dry Your Tears with Love
Once upon a time, I met a really sweet guy with a very demanding job.
Before we knew it, we were falling in love and living together; but one day he had to go away. We spent three months apart from each other, unsure whether our new feelings would survive this trial. While his job kept him busy, I had nothing to do at the time and spent each day binge-watching series or playing video games. Continue reading
But first, one last report
As I announced in my previous post, this is likely to be the last weekly report, or at least the last report to take this shape. Over the holidays, I intend to rethink not only my goals and the best ways for me to reach them, but also my tracking spreadsheets and reporting method. I would like to come up with a ‘reporting spreadsheet’ that gives me an overview of a day, week or month by inputting just two parameters – start and end dates. In the meantime… Continue reading
“third-to-last” doesn’t have that mysterious vibe
This week: a new tracker, more steps, less languages, more work. I am considering putting an end to weekly reports – with only monthly reports – to get back to a more “normal” posting format. The last 11 articles on this blog were reports; I haven’t posted anything else in two months. I would like to go back to prompts and challenges, to sharing meaningless and meaningful things that happen to me. I want to finally launch that “Travel Tuesdays” series. And I need to find a way to do it that won’t take too much time and won’t get in the way of my goals. Also, I need to start thinking about my goals for next year. But for now… Continue reading
Can’t be worse than last week anyway
This week, as usual, I met some of my goals, failed at others, noticed some improvement that can be quantified and some that can’t. I failed miserably at my work-related goals – as I always do – but made some efforts and progress that I am happy about. As I suspected, my American colleague and our weekly phone calls have a positive influence on my motivation and ability to get things done. Now, if only she could ask me to work on my website! Continue reading
… and my worst report ever
As these reports cover weeks that begin on Saturdays and end on Fridays (so that I can post my reports on weekends instead of Mondays), last week’s report only covered the first few days of my vacation in Paris (which began and ended on Wednesdays). If you thought that report was a bad one, take a deep breath because this week’s report is absolutely terrible. But hey! I got to see my friends and family and had a great time, so who cares? (I do. Obviously.)
Now, on the bright side, a quick look at my goals for November:
- Sleep: I should reach my ‘getting-up’ goal provided I don’t super-oversleep the next two days.
- Exercising: I have reached my step goal for November and still have a shot at beating last month’s step count. I don’t think I can reach my fitness goal but should meet last month’s.
- Entertainment: I haven’t even used two thirds of my allotted TV time so things are looking really good.
- Language learning: I am confident that I will reach my study goal although I wish this time was equally divided between German and Spanish. I still have a shot at reaching my writing goal too.
… Since I started this project
The week began rather well as I managed to catch up with my Spanish ‘time goal’, getting some speaking practice despite two cancellations, and working on follow-up e-mails with my new colleague. Once I left for Paris, though, I was out of control: I barely practised any German or Spanish, didn’t do any exercise – at least I walked! – and didn’t work on anything beside the said e-mails. I guess that’s what a real vacation is supposed to look like.
I had hoped to get more done before I left to make up for what I wouldn’t be able to do while I was away, but that didn’t work. And since I am writing this on the Thursday after the date of this post, I can add that I wasn’t able to catch up with my goals in the days that followed my return either. With only a few days to go before December, I am really starting to worry about my goals… Let’s see how I did this week. Continue reading
And you know I don’t mean the film
I feel like I should write about what happened last night in my country – to my country. Armed men attacked civilians in public places and bombs went off during a football match. Over 100 people were killed and over 200 injured. This was January all over again – only this time, the toll is higher, and the victims weren’t hand-picked.
The attacks were as shocking as the amount of support Paris received afterwards, both from within France and abroad. People were quick to offer shelter to those who might need it, donate blood, offer their condolences, and claim that they weren’t afraid, that nothing could strike fear into our France hearts. But France is shaken.
People were also quick to link the attacks with specific groups, nationalities, and religions. Some pointed out that France was attacked because it is a free country. Others blamed religious fanatics. A third category said this was payback for France’s involvement in foreign conflicts. People need someone to blame. All the government has to do is pick a target.
Right now, I’m not shocked. I’m not surprised. I don’t even think I’m afraid. I’m just worried. Worried that attacks like these ones will happen again. That they will be worse. But also worried that our government will use them as a pretext to cause more deaths or screw us in the name of defending us.
So if you don’t mind, I would rather go on with my life – and my weekly report. Continue reading
I mean, you know, statswise
This month, I am getting rid of two categories, “Social life” and “Entertainment”, as they don’t worry me anymore. This has been a really good week for me, both in terms of goals and otherwise, although the usual issues remain – when will I finally make work my priority? There are only ten days to go before I leave for Paris so I really want to make some progress on my website next week, even if it means falling behind in other areas.
I can’t emphasize enough how pleased I am with this week’s results. Of course, after what happened last week (I was sick and had no motivation), this week had to be better, but it isn’t just that: this is, work aside, my best week so far. Taking an “official” break from work seems to have been a good idea, relieving the pressure I put on myself and giving me more mental space and energy to focus on other, personal-but-no-less-important goals. I am so pleased to be able to end October on such a positive note!
On a completely unrelated note, and in an unexpected and unforeseeable turn of events, my boyfriend is coming home today. Not in December, nor in November, TODAY! And he won’t be leaving again for several months! I couldn’t be happier! This shouldn’t come as a surprise, though: of course after such a good week he has to come back and take an active part in messing up my stats! (just kidding… I hope) Continue reading
Still not sure what happened this week
Once again, my partner “ruined” everything by getting in touch and reminding me of how much I miss him. I couldn’t really think of anything else and had little to no motivation. And on top of that, I got sick. So I made the most of human interactions, whether in person or over Skype, in French or foreign languages, to take my mind of it. What little productivity this report holds is miraculous.